Sunday, May 8, 2011

Test Taking

You have no doubt heard of the term nervous nelly, but I want to introduce you to negative nelly, the alter ego I took on today during my ride. After an awesome swim workout with my team, probably my best of the season, I was at lost as to why negative thoughts kept creeping in my head during the ride.

I'm training too much. I'm training too little. Oh hell, I have no idea what I'm doing.
I'm not doing enough speed work.
I'm not cut out for the ironman distance, there's no way I can go under 10 hours. I'm backing out of IM CDA and IM Canada.

It's been a frustrating start to the season. It's like I'm doing all of the homework but still failing the test. I'm actually not that surprised. I graduated high school with a 4.3 GPA but if you looked solely at my SAT score, you'd think that I spent my entire time in high school cutting classes and smoking behind the gym. And then there were my friends who never did their homework, and they aced the SAT. I used to half-jokingly say, "I'm not smart, I just work really hard." It appears I'm reliving high school all over again.


Beth said...

We all have thoughts like that from time to time, don't we? If not, I'm in trouble. :) Hang in there Kiet!

Teresa said...

I agree with Beth. It is tough to trust in ourselves and our can do this!


Matt said...

Hang in there, use the thoughts too motivate you! The 8ball says sub 10 is highly likely ;)

Kim said...

We all go through that (um... see my blog post last week!) but you just need to reprogram your mind and get ready to have a comeback. That's all!! You're 100% normal and probably RIGHT on track. Hey.. I always say, if you don't cry / crack one time during Ironman training.. you're probably not doing it right :) Take care and hang in there my friend!

IAN said...

I'm glad this was a humerous outlet/steam blowoff/venting/emotion vomit.