Since my post about embracing the hurt that comes from attacking the run, I've gone out and done just that, attack all of my runs. But I have to admit, I kind of mentally broke down this morning waking up knowing that I had to yet again, attack another run. I just didn't want to hurt again. I've been sticking to the run plan I've had this entire year, run every third day, with a couple of every second day runs thrown in. This plan has a lot of built-in recovery, and is low mileage, thus, I need to attack every run. On days that I'm not running, I either bike or swim, or do both. Attacking every run puts you at risk for mornings like I had today, where I dreaded getting out the door because I knew I had to suffer. In order to actually get out the door, I told myself to just run, and if I feel like crap, just get the miles in. Most of the run was mediocre, but during the last three miles, the mind and body were slowly willing. I pulled off some 6:20s and a 5:44 mile at the end, due to a nice negative grade.
As the half-marathon draws near, I find myself more anxious about my goal. I'm trying to nail down exactly what it is that is making me anxious, and I think the culprit is that I feel like I'm going to fall short of my goal. I think this mostly stems from the fact that my goals almost always have to do with me trying to chase my PRs. And that rather than setting goals based on my current training/fitness, I set goals based on my lifetime PRs, which is okay if I took up sport 1-3 years ago. But I started racing more than 25 years ago, and in my prime, I set PR's that really are unrealistic for me to continue to try and chase down as I get older and older. Reality is I'm 41 years old. I got some nice perspective tonight when I came across this quote by Ken Glah, a former pro who has finished 28 consecutive Kona races:
You have to set your goals based on what your training is, not what you did 10 years ago. And I think the higher you were at some point in your life,, the harder it is to be more realistic with those goals.
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